Peanut Butter Swirl White Chocolate Button Blondies

#Vegan Peanut Butter Swirl White Choc Button Blondies
You may have noticed I’m about 3 days late with this post. I spent last week baking up a storm, having way too much with my new doughnuts pans, and then dashed off to England to spend some much-needed time with my cute munchkin of a nephew and my sister’s unbearably adorable Alaskan Malamute. (And my mum and sister, obv. But dogs and toddlers first. #priorities)

Priorities. It’s a big learning experience for me, right now. As I get older I find there are more and more things that I “need” to do, and my daily to-do list just gets longer and longer. I have a daily to do list, a weekly one, then a monthly goals list and finally a yearly goals list, which I updated on New Year’s Day. These goals and tasks on my lists range from the fairly mundane – get my favourite pair of shoes reheeled – to the more ambitious – visit Iceland next year – but they don’t even include all the other daily little ‘must do’s like laundry, feeding the cat, etc.

But there’s one thing I always forget to ‘schedule’. DOING NOTHING.

I feel strangely guilty wanting ‘doing nothing’ time, but a few emotional breakdowns have opened up my eyes to the reality that I sometimes need to do nothing. To watch a film without trying to translate my ebook at the same time, with the laptop precariously balanced on my knees and me reaching over the cat curled up in my lap to type away without disturbing him. Or to bake a cake without catching up on the latest TV series because that’s the only way I’m going to get to do both that week and still complete all my chores. It’s undeniable – I’ve fallen into the productive woman trap yet again.
Vegan Peanut Butter Swirl White Choc Button Blondies
#Vegan Peanut Butter Swirl White Choc Button Blondies
Working 9-5.30 doesn’t leave you a whole lot of time to do what you want. And I’m lucky, because I live a ten minute walk from work and have my whole weekends free. I get a very satisfactory amount of annual leave days. I feel like I’m making the most of my life, as much as I can, but still there doesn’t seem to be enough time. I don’t know if that’s because we live in a world where we are so over-stimulated with the endless possibilities of aspirations that we can never accomplish in one lifetime, or because I’m putting that pressure on myself to prove myself (to whom??), or because women in general tend to be under pressure to do so much and be so many things all at once. I don’t know where this manic habit of multitasking comes from, but if it’s already this bad when I’m single in my early twenties, how the hell am I going to cope when I’ve got a husband, a baby and a dog someday? (The cat takes care of himself, mostly. Thankfully.)

There’s this woman I follow on Tumblr. She’s about my age, working full-time, published author with 2 more book deadlines this year, just joined a tennis club and runs on a regular basis, keeps up a busy social life and somehow manages to be in a loving long-term relationship with her boyfriend. I read her blog and think to myself “How does she have time to BREATHE?!” Every minute of her every day is so carefully scheduled to meet all her deadlines, personal and professional. If it were me, much as I love a good to-do list, I think I would crumble to the floor, curl up in fetal position and weep.

I’ve so often read the line “You have as many hours in the day as Beyonce” and I think it’s just bullshit. Of course I do – but I don’t have a whole team of expert organisers and project managers behind me like she does. I’ve only got me. I’ve also heard that your twenties are your hustling years – the years where you work hard to get your shit together so that you’re not in the shit in your thirties. And I think that’s true – but I think it’s also borderline maniacal. People like to talk about balance these days, especially in terms of women’s wellbeing and lifestyle, but I think very few people (and certainly not me) know what that really means. What I do know is that you don’t achieve balance by having a to-do list as long as your forearm.
#Vegan Peanut Butter Swirl White Choc Button Blondies
Prioritise. “(v) Designate or treat (something) as being very or most important.”*

I’m slowly learning to figure out what that means for me. Last weekend, it was way more important for me to spend as much time cuddling my nephew and my sister’s dog as humanly possibly in the span of 48 hours than it was to get this blog post up on time.
#Vegan Peanut Butter Swirl White Choc Button Blondies

Peanut Butter Swirl White Chocolate Blondies

  • Servings: makes 20
  • Time: 15 mins prep + 30 mins baking
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Dry ingredients:

  • 250g (1+ 2/3) cups plain flour
  • 1 tsp baking powder
  • 100g (1/2 cup) white sugar

Wet ingredients:

  • 1 mashed banana
  • 125g (1/2 cup) vegan butter
  • 250ml (1 cup) soy milk
  • 2 generous tbsp runny peanut butter
  • 1 tsp vanilla extract

Topping

  • 50g (1.75 oz) dairy-free white chocolate buttons/chips
  • 1 very, very generous tbsp peanut butter for drizzling over the top

Instructions

  1. Pre-heat the oven to 350 F. Line an 20 x 30cm (8 x 11 inches) rectangular cake tin with baking parchment.
  2. Melt the vegan butter, either for about 30 seconds in the microwave oven or in a small saucepan on the hob. Add the runny peanut butter and stir until combined.
  3. In a large mixing bowl, add the mashed banana and whisk in the soy milk, vanilla extract and melted butter and peanut butter.
  4. Fold in the dry ingredients. There should be no lumps remaining, but take care not to over mix the batter as this will cause it to toughen up.
  5. Pour the batter into the lined cake tin. Drizzle the runny peanut butter over the top, then swirl it in with the tip of a teaspoon. (Peanut butter addicts, feel free to drizzle a little extra.) Scatter the white chocolate buttons over the top.
  6. Bake for 30 minutes.
  7. Cool completely on a wire rack before slicing 20 blondies. Serve immediately or keep in an air-tight container for up to 3 days.

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9 thoughts on “Peanut Butter Swirl White Chocolate Button Blondies

  1. Thank you for this! I am in the throes of end-of-semester angst and whenever I catch myself doing something not-on-the-to-do-list I feel terribly guilty! It is so refreshing to have your reminder that non-to-do-list activities aren’t worthless, they’re soul-nourishment.

    And for other nourishment we have your gorgeous peanut butter swirl blondies. Where have you had luck finding vegan white chocolate buttons?

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    • Hi Lucia! I got mine in Sainsbury’s in the Free From aisle. I’m pretty sure you’ll easily find them online or in Holland & Barrett though, and of course you may want to check your local health food shop.
      Thanks for stopping by x

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  2. I have all those same lists, and try to be productive all the time too… but after a recent break-up and moving into my own place, I’ve found that my weekly to do lists (broken down by day, obvs!) do actually contain the words “Relax” and sometimes even “sit in the shade and read”. I consider that growth.

    And OMFG those blondies look amazing. I cannot bake. Literally cannot. But I wish I could!

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    • I’m glad you’re making time for yourself! I’m trying to do that too. I’ve started limiting how many items I put on my to-do list and have cleared my evening tomorrow so I won’t go to the gym, won’t try to work from home or do loads of chores, I’ll just stay in and watch a film with my cat curled up in my lap. Looking forward to it!
      Well if you can’t bake… get someone else to make these for you 😛

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  3. Loved reading this post, I completely empathise! It’s amazing how bad you can start to feel for “doing nothing,” when you’re really busy, like my sister wants to watch a film and in my head my first thought is “What will that accomplish?” as though any time in which I’m not producing something or working is WASTED time. My wise granny says that “if you enjoyed wasting the time, it wasn’t wasted”, which I think is something a lot of us need to remember in the age of information overload and the tyranny of choice.

    And those look like ruddy good blondies:p

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    • It’s so difficult, isn’t it? There is pressure coming from everyone telling us that everyone else is doing more, better, and basically surpassing us in every aspect. It makes a person feel downright crappy. But one thing I heard recently is that you often only see the show people put on, you don’t see their behind-the-scenes, so we compare our work-in-progress to someone else’s final performance. And that’s just not good for the soul.
      Hope you’re doing well, girl! x

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  5. I love what you wrote here –> “I’ve so often read the line “You have as many hours in the day as Beyonce” and I think it’s just bullshit. Of course I do – but I don’t have a whole team of expert organisers and project managers behind me like she does. I’ve only got me.” I COULD NOT AGREE MORE. Yes, everyone has the same amount of hours in the day, but think about how many people Beyonce has working for her. Think of the countless hours hundreds of people put in to produce one show. I’m not saying Beyonce is undeserving of her accolades but she’s definitely had a lot of help!! 🙂

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